Well, I guess it's time to come clean. I've been hiding a lot of shit lately, and this is the biggest secret of all, I know some of you are not stupid and practically already knew or figured it out, but I want to let you all know that I'm definitely not Lauren. My name is Zachary, or short form for Zach. Yeah, I know, quite fast for me to announce that I'm fake. I've been doing this for about 2 years, it sort of all started out when I realized that GunZ was a game where ego was through a lot of your own choices, such as how you play - how people see you - and how you treat others.
I then realized that since I'm only a young kid, I would have been ego'd a shit ton (keep in mind, that was back when it was around IJJI).
I joined Vitors and Stevens server (Euro) and I had began there my journey of being my sister (yes, I'm her brother).
I had never really seemed to overthink things, I just went along telling people my Skype and I had used her images for practically everything; forum avatars, forum pictures; skype pictures, etc. Also, for those who I've ever Skyped with, I don't use any programs or things that tweak my voice, I just pitch my own voice.
I know you're probably reading this and you're furious.
You might have comments such as "He probably cheated his entire time through GunZ, especially since he's a trial." I'm here to tell you that I never faked anything except for the images/name. The personality was me, it was me the entire time, I just was too emotional and way too sensitive to allow people to ego me. Now, you're also probably making comments such as "Why would anyone judge you if you were yourself?" Thing is, I'm gay (no I did not do this because I'm interested in being transgender or whatever you want to call it), but I did this as myself, my sister is pretty as heck (I hear it all the time), and I knew she was sort of the perfect person to "fake" as, also, I know that I made a few friendships with some of you, and those are probably going to be cut off by the time you're done reading this, and I 100% understand. I also understand that you're probably going to be pissed at me for not telling any of you sooner, I only did this because I was actually caught by Miranda, she had confessed that I was a smart cookie, but she also is a smart girl, and I applaud her for that.
This is the first time I've actually "came out" and told an entire community.
Now, I do know that probably most of you will be like "I have no f*cking respect for this kid anymore".
I also understand that if some of you want to remove me on Skype, then you can go ahead and do so, in no way am I saying that you need to forgive me, I know that things will take time, no matter what it is.
I want you all to also know that this is SUPER hard for me to do, especially for how long I've been doing this for.
I also want you to know, that if you need to trash talk me, ego me, question me, ask me really rude or insulting questions, then I want you to, I want to be me and I want to be honest with you. I do know that I will receive LOTS of punishment from the community, especially a few members whom I've gotten really close with (which sucks cause I've come to like a lot of people), and it's going to be hard to get over a lot of friendships that won't exist anymore.
I would also like to mention each and every one of you, even if I've never talked to you or spoken to you, I know that this is the right thing to do, and I'm coming clean of my sin. I also want you all to know that I really wanted to come clean of this for months, weeks, days, practically years (in my mind).
But I just never had the guts or balls to do so, I also want you guys to know that if you want to remain friends with me, or start a new chapter & get to know me, then I appreciate you greatly. If you want to just end our friendship or feud, or whatever we have, then I will understand and agree with you, no matter what. I owe you all a lot, and this is the beginning of a new era.
And yes - I do know that I must give respect to get it, and I will do anything to keep friendships. I appreciate Miranda for giving me the chance to remain unbanned and remain a Trial ET - although I care about the players & you guys much more about than that.
If anyone wants to talk to me, please PM me as I won't be reading this thread a lot - considering I know that pretty much everyone will be egoing me and I do also know that I will have to go through a lot of drama, I hope that some people will be able to forgive me and some people will be able to let this go.
Thanks for your time.
shoutout to ghost/mike for the section idea '-'
