trees are pretty. flowers are too. theres a lake in my neighborhood that froze up. a couple days ago on my way back from work i stopped by the lake to slide some rocks across it. it doesn't really get this cold where im from, so ive never seen something like this before. as im sliding rocks across the lake, in this 6 or so degree weather, i start tearing up and i begin crying. ive been playing this game since i was 14, (21 now)and it has always held a special place to me i guess. gunz is like a small school. everyone knows eachother, (despite us calling eachother randoms)there are little clique's of players who always hang. theres always little trends that come here and there. gunz has become too much of a part of my life. ive literally played gunz just about every single day in the past 2 or 3 years. ive met so many life friends on here. i guess my goal was to be that one really cool pro person who just wasn't an egotistical asshole. but at the end of the day, the asshole usually wins. you can never really know whos actually pro or unlegit. almost every person i thought was decent turned out to be unlegit. got banned and what not. bleh, long story short, i just can't do this anymore. i just can't.
i want to do actual things. i want to actually accomplish something real. i want to learn to code. i wanna go canoeing. i wanna visit sweden. i want to slide more rocks across frozen lakes and rivers. i want to experience real things i guess
im sorry if i made alot of errors, i just kinda wrote this straight how it was coming to my head.
its not just gunz that i feel i need to quit. i actually am gonna like, shut down my computer for a week or two and just not use it at all. i have tons of console games that i got across the years that i haven't even played.
like zelda twilight princess and paper mario
it's 4 am, and i have to wake up in another 4 hours so im gonna wrap this thing up
you guys probably think im stupid or lame, but this is how i feel
ok cya gunz people, im gonna go slide some rocks across this frozen lake
- omi
